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[30 April 2005]

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hello!

I went studying with Weimin, the two gays and PeiQi today.

Went to the library first to renew and return my storybooks.

I did amaths and emaths paper yesterday night. And I only slept at 1am. NICE, huh?

Perhaps because I'm not that sleepy and i just have a sudden motivation to do. haha.

Anyway, today before the boys arrive, we saw some of the 2e5 gang, like hsun hao, hui yi, jasmine, wen yao.

They started drawing on peiqi's plain paper, which was supposed to be used to do loci. haha. DIAO.

Hmm..there were so many people at enter mac today.

Deacon (jackass! haha.), Yuxi, Huiwen (big shot!), Jeremy.T, Sanna, Carolyn, May Lwin, Ti Shone, Chen Thong, See Kiat, Tiash, Thiha, Shang Yi, Hui Xin. haha. So many people right.

Then PeiQi and I went to Popular. Bought graph paper and file.

Reached home at 8pm. Got a scolding from my mummy...

So here I am online, chatting and playing games.

haha. Gonna rest awhile la..

Anyway, gonna go then!

9:19 PM

[29 April 2005]

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hello!

well 1st paper of the mid-year examination today.

CHINESE.

It was still ok. I'm elated that I got all my hanyu pinyin correct, because initially i didn't know the last two.

But I got one of my zhao ju wrong. Oh well.

Great, there's no need to ponder so much over chinese anymore. But we still have one chinese paper to go and that's the most important one - O levels.

i wanna go study tomorrow! Maybe with the two gays again. haha. And others of course.

I must really use these three days to chiong!

Oh yah and happy birthday seowling, although I didn't see you in school. Oops.

and ermm..jia you for mid year everyone, esp. the graduating classes!

sanna, i agree with u - must bring jacket for the next paper. haha.

I won't be coming online so often, I guess.

All right, I'll go offline now. I wanna file up all my papers and plan my time table!

sayonara~!

5:41 PM

[27 April 2005]

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hello..

i'm now taking a break from my studying PERIOD. Now I am at 10th lesson of sec 3 syllabus!

Still quite slow, huh?

anyway i got back my tests today.

Flunked amaths, which was totally expected.

Flunked electrolysis but passed by a few marks for energy changes.

Passed my physics test by a few marks too.

Doesn't sound good ehh? Yeah..its disappointing.

Just read xiuyue's bloggiee. Well gonna agree with you with that fact.
Sometimes I totally get irritated by it but actually i behaved like this too?

Bleahhs. haha.

My intuition is sometimes correct, sometimes wrong. haha. just look at my amaths.

perhaps people have a strong intuition but didn't expect to pass bah. BAH.

BAH is a word that amin loathes. VERY MUCH. haha.

I DON'T CARE! today i must finish sec 3 syllabus!

*sigh* wonder if i can do it. NEVER MIND! I must persevere!

=))

9:40 PM

[26 April 2005]

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hello!

just came back from central.

I went to see the doctor. He said it was rather bad, as in, my cough.

Oh well.

Today was quite a normal day too, except for the photoshooting.

The class shot was fine, but the cca shot...it was so warm wearing those blazers!

but I felt glad to see all co members again!

Supposed to go to ss course today, but since i was sick, i didn't go.

Didn't do PE today..and ermm..started on my chinese le! I studied the 128 idioms last night.

And now I'm stuck at the 3rd lesson of my sec 3 syllabus. NICE. But at least I started.

I guess we all know the sec 4s will die for their mid year but nevertheless! JUST DO OUR BEST FOR Os! YEAH.

Hmm...This coming weekend and Monday will be the days to really catch up!

And ermm...I don't know what else to say. haha.

Ohh yeah..recently i felt that I don't have many friends? i dunno..it just seems that those who i regard as good friends go along with others...*sigh*

that feeling struck me today..

i'll go first! sayonara!

9:05 PM

[25 April 2005]

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hello!

well today was a normal day for me, except that i'm having a pretty bad cough now.

The Strepsils cough logenze is now in my mouth..haha.

About him, I guessed I'm not sad about it anymore. You can say I'm recovering.

But at times I still want to look for him. On the contrast, I'm ignoring/avoiding him.

wahhaha. Here comes the bad thing. I have not started on my chinese yet!

Oh my god! Its like everyone had already started and I havent!

I really got to start later! I've already finished my homework. Just one piece of work today. =))

Having two tests tomorrow..And I have studied for it. the subjects are physics and amaths. NICE. So now, its chinese!

There will be phototaking session tomorrow..and I have to bring white skirt for co! Ohh well.

I don't mind la. haha. I wanna drink the water from my water bottle but its too hot! ARGHH.

I put in too much hot water..damn. haha.

all right i guess that's all! NOW FOR CHINESE!

JIA YOU!

7:50 PM

[22 April 2005]

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BTYCO - we got a BRONZE!

finally a medal for us! You can say i am very happy but on the other hand, not really.

I was a little disappointed.

Firstly, we were aiming for silver. But we kinda freaked out on stage and screwed up some things.

Our dizi was flat. Our percussion solo was abit slow. But nevertheless, we persevered.

Zhong Zheng was damn good! ROCK ON, GUYS!

The weakness of our orchestra is..or rather of most musical bands/orchestras..is our performance is not as good as our practices. That's the bad thing.

The most infuriating thing was CHOA CHU KANG can get SILVER? Are you kidding me?!

They cheated on their dizi's hou ban beat and their gu zheng actually played wrongly?

Worst of all, the gu zheng was right in front.

And Maris Stella, dun be disappointed! I guess you guys didn't expect a silver but you guys tried your best! Congrats again.

On to our SYF. I was so dead nervous when it was our turn. My hands were shivering.

After our performance, Eunice actually broke down.

We were kinda scared that we wouldn't get a medal this time cos..well as i mentioned earlier..our performance wasn't as good as our practices.

I cried when the person started announcing the results. I was so afraid cos everyone was like having intuitions that we'll get COP.

Ohh yah! Seniors like wei jian, susanna, simin, wanling, keith, zelda and another wei jian came back to support us! Millions of thanks!

after that we went back to schoo. Was having a rather serious case of motion sickness during the bus ride. SICKO. Later I went to eat dinner at MOS with jasmine, yimin, xiuyue and shiwei.

When I went online that night, everyone was asking me for results. Well, I didn't tell the present beattyians. Wanted to give them a surprise. Wahah.

Now no beattyian can look down on us! We will climb up de!

And thanks michael for saying that we deserved a silver..=)) haha.

i guess that's all i gonna blog on huh?

Oh yeah! I missed co practice, i missed everyone in co, and i missed all the happy times together!! Miss ya guys lots!

=))

ohh yah! Rumour had it that our 'BELOVED' lee lao shi is coming back. Information provided by Zelda. Don't really believe but still mattered to us btyco.

Let me tell you guys..I will never ever let lee lao shi step into beatty.

I will only let zhou lao shi step into beatty.

cos our beloved now is ZHOU LAO SHI.

8:48 PM

[20 April 2005]

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hello!

this is it. SYF. Jia You, BTYCO.

well...i'm rushing for time, so i wont blog much. I haven't been blogging huh?

Today i saw him at the bus stop..then kenneth started talking about him..it just made me boil.

ARGHH. I think I'm still angry at him.

Tml is SYF! good luck everyone! Just do our best and prove to everyone that we aren't lousy!

All right then. I gonna do my biology tys and watch my "Jing Zhong Ren". SAYONARA!

BTYCO, JIA YOU!

8:55 PM

[18 April 2005]

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i was abit better than i thought i will be today.

but nevertheless when i think of a particular thing, i will start to hate him, as if i have a grudge against him.

*you told me to be honest with you..ALWAYS. But did you?

anyway, today i got the news that there will be co from 12pm to 3pm tml! YEAH!

firstly, due to this, physics test is postponed to next week.

secondly, co can buck up more as we will be having practices every day from tml till our SYF.

I'm really afraid that the dizi and suona will screw everything up...But worst of all, i am afraid that everyone will be so tensed up, including me, that we ALL will screw everything up.

but the bad thing is i'll be having my ss course at 3pm! So I wont have any lunch break! How i wish I can excuse myself from the ss course. BUt never mind!

Today i finally started on my biology tys - did respiration [aerobic & anaerobic] and [in animals MCQ].

I think i'll do some later again..

hmm...i guess that's all huh?

thanks ling...for your concern ok! take care of yourself also..

and sorry nana and my other close friends. I guess I'm just not ready to tell you guys yet..

8:27 PM

[17 April 2005]

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hello people...

ling arh..i still can smile la..don't worry.

well today i had tuition at 12..

was in the 'sian' mood again..did chemistry and..that's all?

then i fell asleep while reading my storybook till 6+!

Realising the time I quickly got off from my bed and started doing my emaths homework.

Then at 7 i watched the NKF Show. I can't believe it.

This NKF show should have more donations than the previous ones..but it didn't.

it raised 5 million..1 million less than last week's..

Anyway *4 days to SYF*

time flies sooo quickly huh? Jia You, btyco! Let's prove to others that we can do it! Let's prove to the school!

My only distractions are co and school...

i think i can manage this better...this isn't the 1st time..

do i have a face that made people lie to me?!

i have a strong intuition that i'll get worse over the coming school days. Heck care le...

11:32 PM

[16 April 2005]

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*depressed.* [kinda]

i think i'll get worse on monday, since there's school.

Why do people have to lie? Its always the guys who lied to me. WHY?!

I don't understand! Can't they just tell me the truth?! STUPID. IDIOTIC.

cried abit yesterday while lying on bed (yiling, you've got your half of your "wish".)

I hate you. I hate myself more. I hate myself. Why everyone can have the way they want their life to be while i can't?!

*sigh*

never mind. on with the normal things.

band got bronze! congrats! at least you guys maintained, so cheer up!

Next up, chinese orchestra's syf..wahh..i'm so afraid.

well i hope we can really have practice on tuesday, including wednesday and thurs too!

Anyway, today i went studying with yimin. Or rather, we were doing homework.

We saw Lie Rong with her family. they were having breakfast together..i found it very.."family"? haha. i have no idea how to describe. But its in a positive way la..

Then Weimin and PeiQi came unexpectedly. So they joined us. Cheryl came a while later.

We were teasing Yimin by hiding her handphone. I didn't know it was inside my pencilbox until i actually opened it. wahaha.

Felt abit better with friends around and doing homework.

Until he smsed me.

I didn't want to reply after the second sms. And i didn't.

Anyway, after that Cheryl and Peiqi accompanied me to CD-RAMA and Popular. Went to buy batteries, and the "HOT" Cd for my maid.

As i was walking home, I dropped by at the VCD shop at the underpass.

I found out that there were so many VCDs I want to buy!

I want to buy: Qian Jin Bai Fen Bai, Ai Qing He Yue, Huan Zhu Ge Ge III.

And they were showing Tian Guo De Jia Sha. It intrigued me to want to buy it too.

[intrigue] new word i've learnt today!

Oh well. Good luck to Chinese Orchestra! *prays hard* and..stupid gary [sec three]. How can you say we will get C.O.P?! I'll kill you!

5 more days to SYF... *hey i practiced my erhu twice during the day today!

=)) ='(((

8:26 PM

[14 April 2005]

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oyasumi nasai~

i went to have lunch with cheryl and yimin today.

Were on the same bus with xiuyue and debra..haha.

During the CME period today, we were supposed to form groups and think of what marriage is like and why.

sanna gave one and that was "Marriage is like owning a dog because it requires commitments."

well, i guess everyone in the group thought it was rather true and rational huh?

Brainstorming and writing down our ideas on the vanguard sheet, nazeeya started doodling, or rather, drawing. So Cheryl and I joined in. wahaha.

There's geography test on map reading tomorrow, and I've just went through it.

ohh yeah. I have finished reading my library book. Well, or should i say one of the 4 library books i've borrowed?

The story was about this girl, who was unpopular, and obviously totally unknown in school, wanting to get, well, popular. DUH. So, a vampire gave her that. But then came the painful sacrifices in exchange for her so-called popularity.

Well, too lazy to elaborate more. But it was a rather great story. At least it kept me reading and reading more. I just couldn't stop. I just took 3 days to finish it!

Next, another 'full-of-suspense' book.

There was a slogan on the book cover. It says "If you like CSI, you'll love this."

Cool.

So that was it. Just earlier on I got this part of my brain triggered off, attempting to compose another song. But now, I totally forgot the tone and stuffs.. And I realised something. All the songs, well only 2 so far, AND all incompleted, were those kind of slow-beat and sad songs? haha. It isn't easy, really.

I hate the chinese enrichment now! Just last session, I felt so drained up after finishing my composition at tremendously fast speed.

Band's having their SYF Central Judging tml. Wish them LUCK! next thurs, it'll be you bandsmen wishing us luck. haha. Gambatte anyway!

9:17 PM

[13 April 2005]

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hello!

well today a depressed-cum-normal day.

after dismissal at 1.05pm, yimin and I went to the canteen and sat down to do our homework.

I actually wanted to revise biology/chem but ended up using the whole free time doing the ss mindmap.

then i saw him..Once we saw each other. Immediately after I realised he saw me, I just turned away.

Almost cried...*sigh*

then came co practice.

Had quite a lot of fun chattingANDplaying with Eunice, Sher, Lie Rong, ahlay and ling. haha

Zhou Lao Shi came at 5.30pm.

Our Dizi was really lousy..according to our conductor. *sigh*

today i asked ben what he think we would get.

He said we are still at the COP stage but nearer to bronze this time.

WAH LAO. nvm! Jia you!

Went home with Xiuyue and met Hakim at the bus stop.

He was full of lame jokes man...

At some point we both were teasing Xiuyue. wahhha.

WOLS. haha.

Reached home at 7plus..Did amaths homework.

Hmm..I guess that's all then..bye!

9:42 PM

[12 April 2005]

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hello!

well today we had a "lecture" from mr foo. It's kinda stupid of him, wasting two damned periods scolding us and indirectly saying he's right to whatever we "shot" to him. What the hell. I was so damn pissed. I should not elaborate on that. Since Sher said we should not be pissed off by this kind of person. TRUE.

xiuyue, i gonna agreed with u about our sch. How "NICE" they are to not use their brains and think that we, the upper secs, are so far away from them and the lower secs are like so damn near to them? Obviously this will be harder for our voices to be heard by them. I mean, come on. Just imagine. We just have to ask the school to shift the upper secs in front and the lower secs at the back and they'll know what's the problem.

STUPID. why am i saying all these?

it's all because today because of our LOUSY singing, we were detented (is that such a word?) for like half an hour? And the most infuriating thing is, the sec 1s are excused? what the..

IDIOTIC.

you can say today wasn't my best day.

then after school and DETENTION, da chronics, minus yuyin and nana, went to the canteen as the hall was being occupied by mrs singh. (We had to show Miss James our environmental dance.)

then met yiling there. I finally know le! ling, you should feel honoured ok..you are the closest junior I had ok..haha.

Chatted with her..you almost made me cry arhh. I almost cried you know..

ok anyway, then we practiced after mrs singh and the rest left the hall. It was ok, for me. I remembered most of the dance steps. But Jasmine was thinking of modifying the dance steps for the first song. TRUE. I agree with her. the steps are kinda odd somehow.

Hmm..9 days to SYF! ehh, ling, zhou lao shi got said we might get silver meh? haha. I also wanna get at least a medal back. Then from there we slowly move up..

JIA YOU JIA YOU!

tomorrow due to the NADFA's 2.4km run, all graduating classes plus 4N will be released at 1.05pm! HURRAY! And the best thing is, I don't have to run! All btyco members (sec4s and 5) have been excused from NADFA. We'll be taking it after our SYF! HURRAY! haha.

BUt..there's a chinese test tomorrow. Came here to blog while resting. Studied about half the syllabus liao..haha. All right I guess that's all! BYE!

9:51 PM

[10 April 2005]

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hello!

today i woke up later..at about 10am.

Did not really study/do homework but instead I watched television. OOPS.

but anyway then my tutor surprisingly came at 12 noon. I thought today's tuition was 1430?

anyway, finally figured out amaths. I guessed I was too lazy because once i saw those Es..I kinda freaked out. wahhaha.

Today's tuition I revised Chemistry and amaths.

I can't find my emaths textbook! Maybe I really left it in my locker? I can't find it at home!

Then after my tuition I met Sieweng at 4pm. We went to the library to return our books. Borrowed 4 books instead of 3 this time. hahaha.

Then at night I watched the NKF show. Zhen Ni and Emil Chou were great! I love PENG YOU...so nice!

So far, I have only revised one chapter of chinese...errr...gonna really mug tml after school.

ohh no..I have failed yet again today. So much for those motivation for myself.

Well, try again tomorrow! or later...all right then I'll go offline now! bye!

10:55 PM

[09 April 2005]

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well...(okiee..i'm really sounding like kenneth? bleahhs.)

today was a pretty bad day for me.

my day is so different from ya, nana. haha.

mine was a good start but bad ending.

I woke up at 8+ today! Is this a miracle or what?!

okok..maybe i'm exaggerating but if i wake up at 8+ on weekends this is really a miracle for me!

A good start. My plan for today was to finish my homework and study!

But in the end..

ok here's the story.

I didn't start doing all those i've pledged till 1pm.

So I started doing amaths initially. BUT! I was so blur! I couldn't do it! Just seeing those Es made me go nuts.

then ok nvm. I started doing my tuition comprehension..till now, i haven't finished the summary..half-way done.

and that's all i did today! ARGHH!!!

oh my god..really gonna buck up! I just can't study on weekends only!

Come on gwen! jia you!

I must study everyday liao! only 50+ days to O level Chinese!

i guess that's all for today, huh? bye!

9:58 PM

[08 April 2005]

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hello!

Choir and Malay Dance came back with a Bronze and GOLD medal respectively! Whoa! Congrats! only 13 days to SYF! Jia You!

Today's chinese enrichment was damn exhausting for me! Arghh!

Anyway co session today was not bad, except for the sec 1s.

At first, they were throwing a bag down and up to a guy? then they were playing basketball. What kind of attitude is this? OKie, I apologised that we can't concentrate on you guys. But there is no reason to behave like this.

I think dizi was a bit too soft today. I couldn't hear them. Percussion solo was not bad! Suona too! Must blow the correct tune! Jia You, everyone!

After that, I went to eat with Cheryl and Pei Qi. Then we saw Tong Liang and Jocelyn. Don't misunderstood arhh..haha. (Ehh, jocelyn, I'm helping you to explain. Treat me arhh..haha jkjk!)

Hmm..I saw him boarding the bus today...Chelsea was like, "huh? you all hello also never say..bye bye also never say."

*sigh* sad arhh..i just told my trusted friend that i felt like giving up..but then again, don't wanna give up...I don't know what to do.

She said dan lian is always tong ku one. TRUE!

Ermmm..currently looking for people to study with..but i think no one bah. Nvm! I must learn to adapt studying at home!

Jia You! must really start studying chinese and other subjects le! Gambaru ne~! it means jia you together. Something like that. Mai taught me de. haha.

10:21 PM

[07 April 2005]

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today is SPORTS DAY!

well..at first I was really so worried because just last night, ah john told me we were at 4th position b4 the sports day. I was sooo...shocked! But luckily in the end, we were the runner-up house! I'm so elated that we actually managed to maintain at 2nd after Dennis left! Hey, dennis, we didn't let u down ok...It's all thanks to Johnathon's Sturdee training! Well done arhh! haha.

And Joey, Josephine and Chye Keong you guys rock! Everyone in Sturdee who took part too!

hmm...after dismissal i went out to find Xiuyue and the rest. But they werent there.

I was half expecting that they have gone without me while i was attempting to reach them by phone.

I was so damn pissed. What sia..just abandoned me like that. then after reaching yuyin (she said to meet at red circle), I stayed at the stadium for a while before proceeding to the red circle. Fine, i don't mind walking there alone. But i actually was earlier than them? Although it was by a few minutes? Then I saw them with Mr.tan. Lucky for them. I actually wanted to blow up and rant at them and then walk off. Seeing their happy faces, over there chatting away and drinking bubble tea. What sia..

then obviously I wasn't happy and they started asking me about that after Mr Tan left.

I said yes..and I almost cried loh. Okie, people, maybe you guys think I'm might be over-reacting, but that's what happened! You know when sometimes people get too angry that they will start to cry, right? Yup, that's the situation.

After a while, I started to loosen abit but actually, still quite pissed.

ermmm..ohh yeah. I found out that this year's SPORTS DAY wasn't as fun as the past. Practically there were very few in Sturdee cheering. Thanks for the ones who cheered k..

And ermm..about him arhh...nothing to say....nothing is happening..nothing at all...

8:46 PM

[06 April 2005]

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hello! today was a very dramatic day for me.

First thing in the morning, when i put down my bag in the parade square and saw mehmood, the first thing that came out of his mouth when pointing to me was "Wah. So chio!"

ARGGH..like mocking me like that. I was like, MY GOD..and quickly walked away.

Next, during SS, my contact lens actually came out! My right len, actually. I was like, OMG! I didn't bring my salline solution, or rather didn't even bother. hha. I was so shocked when it came off. Then Evan and I went around asking for the solution.

We went to the general office, to the staff room and even bothered Mr Chan, Mrs Haridass and Mrs Chow. Even the vice-principal, Mrs Tan! Haha. We actually happened to see her.

We missed 2 periods - 1 SS and 1 E.maths. Finally, and luckily, Kimberly has a kind of solution for rinsing contact lens. She said can use.

PHEW! Finally! But I still felt a bit scared that my eye would get infected! But now its all right! YEAH! thanks evan!

Hmm..then after school, we waited for the choir to come out of the music room. Today's their syf! WISH THEM LUCK!

Today zhou lao shi didn't come. I guess its because he's at FuHua or some other school. I managed to memorise the 2 syf pieces! Well, almost. haha. stupid alan. He thinks he's so good at erhu. Sorry arh...but all the sec 1 juniors don't like you do you know that?! TOO BAD.

I was learning how to play liuqin's part for our set piece when Hui Quan came to told me things about him. Irritating. The juniors said they don't understand what he's saying. they even wanted to get away from him! Stupid. I even argued with him.

He asked me why this erhu so many dots de..then so messy and who marked the erhu de. Then I said me loh. then he said so messy how to see. Then i said you so clever you do la..funny.

Then he started blahhing again. ARGHH.

Well, due to popular demand by xiuyue, I just wanna say something - HOHO umbrella! haha.

Ohh yeah. Happy Birthday sanna! =)) hope ya like the present.

tomorrow is sports day! Whoa..time really flies huh?

This also means that my O levels are approaching. Only 57 days to Chinese do you guys know that? Really gonna start revising!

Okiee...then I think i better stop..this entry is too long. haha. bye!

9:09 PM

[05 April 2005]

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hello!

hmm..what did i want to say? haha.

anyway today i went to eat lunch with Yimin, Amin, Thiha and Gary.

We saw Tiash, Ah John, Garry and Lie Rong at the bus stop.

Ohh yeah! 2M were behind us. disgusting.

Proceeded to Mos Burger soon after we reached the interchange.

Tiash was so humorous..haha! stupid idiot.

Hmm...then I went home and filed up my papers! finally!

And i finished my ss mindmaps and emaths paper! Well for the emaths paper, kind of finished la. haha.

Hmm..i will be going to study ss later..Tomorrow there's co! YEAH! hha.

looking forward to every co session now..i wonder why.

Ohh yah!!! I finally remembered what I want to say!

Today Mr Foo wasn't here...this is the really stupid idiot.

He can just shutuploh...He havent even trained us for our NADFA and our 2.4km run is like next wednesday? He's just a sicko. Forever talking about "what have you learnt?" and just playing games.

But during our PE period, some of us changed into our PE attire and we started to run around the school.

I am so proud of myself today! I ran 4 times around the sch, each time taking a different route, without stopping!! Although I slowed down, at least i didn't stop! Yeahh! So its all psychological.

Well, I guess so.

Anyway, Mrs Chow still wants us to perform the cheer too! Mrs Chow, we don't want!

It will be the worst and more embarrassing performance if we did that! PLEASE...

ohh yeah..i was just telling my sister about some of my disgusting friends. Actually, just two - one minor case and one MAJOR case.

haha. all right i think i'll go now! BYE!

9:31 PM

[04 April 2005]

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yo!

well today i got back my physics and amaths test results.

Just passed my physics by 2 marks and got 11/15 for amaths.

Ohh well.

Sports Day is coming soon! Jia You, Sturdee!

After school today, I went to eat KFC with Evan, Kat, Nana and Eunice. It was rather late when I reached home..But I finished geography mindmaps and studied physics. I just went through the notes.

Anyway, I havent been talking about him lately.

I think there's no use to be so concerned about him and always wait for him to come online and sms chat with him.
My instinct just tells me that he doesn't and will not like me.

So now what i am to do is to concentrate on my studies and not think about him so much. YUP.

I can't believe there's only 1 month plus to the O level Chinese Exam. I got to work harder!!

I asked Miss James for some tips and she told me to prioritize. She also told me how to improve my English. PHRASE BOOK? was what she wrote. So I guess its reading. haha.

Well I guess that's all then! Ja mata ne!

9:30 PM

[03 April 2005]

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hello!

i was lazy to blog yesterday. haha.

anyway this morning I went to watch Spongebob Squarepants. It was a rather short movie, but it was still worth it. Just like what everyone knows, it was full of lameness and surprisingly, excitement. Yup, EXCITEMENT.

I had tuition at 3.30pm and did my Physics TYS. I didn't even know the formula for Charge and Power! Am I stupid or what? I think I really got to buck up on my Physics.

Finished 2 of SS questions, english comprehension, e.maths and physics.

I didn't even revise this weekend! Ohh no!

Ohh yeah, and another thing i am gonna add in today's entry.

I just read someone's blog and finally saw the true meanings of DESPERATE and HYPOCRITE.

with my own eyes.

Well, if you are already liking someone and apparently showing it to everyone that you are crazy over that person, why brood over the ex? It's kinda bitchy, ya know that?

And for goodness' sake just stop feigning yourself, and stop lying to yourself.

You are not everyone's happy angel or whatever that is.

I'm actually kind enough not to mention ya name. How i wish I could just blurt it out.

You just make me despise you more and more each blog entry you put.

and one more thing, good that you know people can't stand you. =))

all right, I guess that's all.

sayonara! don't worry people, i still treat people nice. It's just that I'm venting my anger out.

10:31 PM

[01 April 2005]

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hello!

i just noticed in my previous entry, I kept "well-ing" OMG! I'm not becoming Kenneth, am i? haha.

This morning, the sec 3 counciliors were along the pathway where classes will take to their respective classrooms. then when i was walking to mr ng's room, i saw him.

*sigh* why let me see him?! I just glanced at him, and he saw me. Then I completely turned away from him...I felt a surge of sadness in me..I dunno why..

Then during recess, I saw him again..*sigh*

Today's chinese enrichment was crazy. I got back my previous practice composition. I got 28 upon 50? So lousy.

After school, I quickly changed to co tee and ate with xiuyue and yimin.

Today there was a live recording in the hall. At first, they didn't even switch on the air-conditioners! It was so warm, and our thick tee made it worse.

We started to practice our two syf songs. Today Agatha finally got her notes right! We are so proud of you guys, suona! Jia You! As for dizi, it was not bad except for the HOU BAN beat. Jia You too!

Then we started the recording. I couldn't play our chosen piece by just looking at the conductor. I kept forgetting. I was better at the set piece. Perhaps because its much shorter.

After the recording, we practiced for a while more before watching the videos.

We didn't know it was close-up! So paiseh! But we had alot of fun watching it! haha!

After keeping our instruments and stuffs, we settled down in the music room for announcement.

I asked for the dizis, suonas and sec 1s to stay back.

for sec 1: the problem was that erhu juniors just kept breaking their strings every week! At this rate, I think we'll run out of strings! So I told them to either tune it properly or enquire for help should they not know how to tune.

Dizis and suonas: I suggested to them to stay back whenever they are free. They were free on Tuesdays and Thursdays! Jia You! Only 20 days to SYF! Gambatte Ne!

After dismissal, when we were all outside the music room wearing our shoes, Mrs Lu stopped us. She said that we didn't clear the hall properly, and that there were still litter. She asked for all SYF members to stay back. Xiuyue and I didn't. We just peeked into the hall through the clear window and saw some bottles. There wasn't much we could do anyway. Firstly, almost all the SYF members have gone home. there were only a few left. So there's no use right? Secondly, the hall was already locked. So there is no use complaining? SOTONG. haha.

I was waiting for xiuyue to keep her books in her locker (her locker is disastrous! haha. Sorry arhh..xiuyue!) when I saw him again.

I don't know why but at that point of time I actually wanted to cry. I really have no idea why!

Then just outside the school campus, we saw Cheryl, Peiqi, Hakim and gang. Hakim started to say my previous style of "ShutUpLah" so I told him to SHUTUP! haha. then tim and hakim started going crazy. They started singing a song, which I don't know what's the title. But their actions were so hilarious. HE was near me. I didn't even look at him. So then I went for dinner with Chelsea and Xiuyue at enter mac's.

Tomorrow I'll be having tuition at 10am and I havent even finished the homework! How nice!

haha. Going to do homework and study with yuyin and xiuyue!

i guess that's all then! see ya..!

10:27 PM