[30 November 2006]
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7 hours of dance completed! Woot.

I was really feeling exhausted after the first half. He pushed us to our maximal maximum limit at the last five minutes! Ran, and then have to do the sequence straightaway. I'm an injured person today. Blister on my hand, injured veins?! Haha. Blueblacks on knees and even on the joints which join the legs to the hips! Oh man.

Well, the good thing is I think it will be better tomorrow. Even though I'm still feeling really sore all over. Oh yeah. A miracle happened yesterday. I actually did my homework! Despite dance training until 7pm plus! I think its really the mentality ehh? I kept telling myself I can't waste today. If I slack every dance day, I'll just die next year. Cool, isn't it?!

Ciaos, people.

7:54 PM



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7 hours of dance completed! Woot.

I was really feeling exhausted after the first half. He pushed us to our maximal maximum limit at the last five minutes! Ran, and then have to do the sequence straightaway. I'm an injured person today. Blister on my hand, injured veins?! Haha. Blueblacks on knees and even on the joints which join the legs to the hips! Oh man.

Well, the good thing is I think it will be better tomorrow. Even though I'm still feeling really sore all over. Oh yeah. A miracle happened yesterday. I actually did my homework! Despite dance training until 7pm plus! I think its really the mentality ehh? I kept telling myself I can't waste today. If I slack every dance day, I'll just die next year. Cool, isn't it?!

Ciaos, people.

7:49 PM



[29 November 2006]
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4 hours of dance = mentally and physically exhausted.

Even the bus ride home seemed tiring. How I wish at that time someone would just appear and fetch me home in a zoom.

7 hours tomorrow. I have to persevere. I just think that I totally suck at warm-up techniques. I totally suck. I think I felt better during the part where we danced our sets. Anyway, dancers, don't worry. We're all in it together. One very good tip is to stretch that little bit everyday. Even that small bit helps.

Dansez-le!

I want to go KBOX.
I'm worried for my studies, not forgetting holiday assignments.
I want to enjoy my holiday. Wrong.
I will enjoy my holiday :)

Take care.

9:31 PM



[28 November 2006]
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I'm back from studying with our dear yimin. (actually i came back about 4 hours ago)

A pretty producive day, i must say. Except that justin disturbed me a few times when he was at mac, and Hello! to 0622 gang. haha. I finished my Maclaurin tutorial! Finally. Its not tough, but tedious. Really tedious. One mistake in front, and you have to start all over again. I did one gp comprehension, part of the holiday assignment too. I have to do another one, in favour of my tutor. Oh well. And so, I have been slacking ever since. Better do some work later. I have no idea how am I going to finish up all my tys during this period. Tutor said you must have determination. TIME?! I have no time! I'm a busy person! Haha. Alright, I was just joking.

Welcome back, LTC people! You guys sure have fun :)

Okay, I still have so much homework to do. Screams.

And I have yet to revise.

9:28 PM



[26 November 2006]
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I'm changing my blogskin soon.

Didn't go for dance today. I just didn't really want to go and besides, I'm coming down with a cold. Eew. I just hate it when I'm getting sick. I just pray that I wont get a fever. I have been getting the fever a few times this year already.

I can't help but feel ashamed of what sometimes girls can do. Oh well.

Off to salon tomorrow, I guess.

8:43 PM



[25 November 2006]
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I'm a 狼狽 kid today.

Woke up early in the morning to attend Miss Tang's wedding ceremony! It was a different kind of ceremony i have attended; a whole new experience. Miss Tang was so beautiful! Everything just makes Wan Teng wants to get married huh? Haha. Then, at this moment something unlucky must happen to me. Oh well. I've half expected it. This kind of thing always happens to me. The whole "platform" of my high heels came off. I actually have to use plasters to help stick it. Thanks, Peu. haha. My small toe's skin was torn :( Talk about being "suay". It was getting worse as we walked back to the bus stop and so the rest helped me get a cab. Thanks so much!

Talking about high heels, I'll swear if there's no need I'll never wear them again. It was a struggle; I regretted it once i wore it out. The shoe was a size 4, and my feet is most probably a size 5. I'm sure of it. But don't ask me why, the high heels just fit. haha. But it was abit tight. And wearing high heels, it just attracts attention. Maybe it was because of the click-clank sound. Or whatever. I feel like a total idiot in the mrt train today. High heels = so-not-me.

Danny's performance, or rather, his choreography, was great. The dancers' techniques...woot. Fabulous. The saddening thing was that I didn't really get what the dance was trying to say. The previous one we went, the impromptu one, was easier to understand. But still great. The lighting was abit irritating though. Tears were like forcing to roll down my face or something, stinging my eyes! haha. Thanks to everyone in NY who came :) We, dancers, appreciate it and hope you enjoyed it as well!



Above: All these just for $16.60! Message me, and I'll tell you where this great place is :)

我 只 是 個 寂 寞 的 女 孩 。

我 一 直 在 等 待﹐ 等 待 著 。

等 待 著 一 個 人 的 出 現 。

關 懷﹐ 愛 護﹐真 心 。

這 些 就 夠 了 。

這 某 人 的 擁 抱﹐ 是 我 有 時 最 需 要 的 。

但 我 想﹐ 這 大 概 不 會 成 真 了 。

就 讓 我 沉 迷 在 這 完 美 的 幻 想 中 吧 。。。

just some random stuff i've been wanting to post :)


2:25 PM



[23 November 2006]
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SAKAE!

It was alright, only that when we were asking for the cake there was a very embarrassing moment. You see, we told the SAKAE workers that we'll call them when we want the cake to be up. Then just when we were asking a waiter to bring the cake up, a waitress just came up with the cake. That's like, boom!, real fast. haha. Li Sin and I were laughing like crazy.
WE CELEBRATED YONGCAI'S BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE!


:birthday (little) boy! haha. Thanks, Li Sin for buying the cake! (:

Went to play arcade after that. House of the Dead and Jurassic Park! Haha. We were practically screaming. All three of us. Quite fun, ehh? Of course we played other games as well. Reached home at 9pm! I didn't manage to catch my SUPERSTAR! ugh. Oh well.

Danny's performance tomorrow! Dance tee & jeans, dancers.


10:05 PM



[22 November 2006]
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Procrastinating. Procrastinating.

I'm dead.

My tutor says I have to get at least a B for GP. Son, help me! Pressure's rising up.

Went out with nana and gary on my dear nana's birthday! :) Hope you enjoyed your day, girl! And I'm so sorry for Justin's extreme lameness. He was dead lame that evening. Idiotic Justin, I just lost my face in front of my friends. Haha. Anyway, Hanrong! I'm so sorry I got back to you late! I'm not sure what happened but do take care!

By the way my new timetable only worked for a few days. After that, I totally didn't follow the timetable. I must give motivation to myself! But then again, somehow I really need a room to myself. A room that I have wished for since ages. A room that can keep me enclosed in that small area, so that I can have peace and study! Ugh. But this wish just seems so far away.

Oh well. I guess I just have to make do with the environment I have now.
AZA AZA...FIGHTING!

9:35 PM



[19 November 2006]
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I'm back~ haha.

I finally managed to do some work today! I did a comprehension for tuition and did 2 questions on math tutorial. Well at least I did. Haha. I'm rather proud of myself. All these while I have been slacking although I planned what to do, but the previous timetable wasn't precise enough. So I thought I come up with a more clear one, and I finally managed to accomplish something. Woot.

My new drama obsession: Scissors Rock Paper, starring Qiao En and my ever favourite Sam Wang Shao Wei! More woots. I caught 4 episodes in one day on Youtube. Now waiting for episode 8 to load! You guys should watch it. Finally there is show where Sam Wang is really like the main guy lead. But then again, it seems to me that this is a different kind of story which includes love and friendship. I need to know if Qiao En and Sam Wang get together! Ugh.

Dance today. We actually over-shot by 10 minutes. haha. Was planning to buy nana's present after dance but then she had a change of plans for tomorrow and I only need to buy her present tomorrow. So many birthdays coming up! Friends of mine, you know I don't really know how to buy presents for people unless I really have an idea! I hope you don't mind non-material stuff :)

O- and A-levels are ending for most of the people who have been mugging hard. You guys deserve the break. Next year, it'll be my turn.

11:13 PM



[16 November 2006]
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FUN DAY TODAY!

We went to Nicholas's house for a singing session! With Ann Nee and Li Sin, we can laugh till we drop. Haha. Had lots of fun, really. And Nic, your sister's very cute! :) Thanks for letting us visit and so sorry for almost 'destroying' your house! Haha. I planned to leave at six, then seven and in the end we left at 8.15pm. OH MAN. Ann Nee and I only reached home at just after 9pm. Next time, you guys should come here. CENTRAL AREA. Muahahaha.

Anyway, I'm feeling bad. So sorry to the gossip club members. Really really sorry. I shouldn't have gone into the blog! GOMEN! :(

I must train by using diaphragm to sing. Its not easy. Ugh. Ann Nee, teach me!

11:04 PM



[14 November 2006]
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STEP UP! Its way too hot. I just realised the opening song is the one I danced to last Sunday. Way too cool. Just when Chelsea and I are wondering what's the song. It was so nice. If you guys love dancing, you have to catch it. Now I'm even more motivated to go learn dancing whereby they take you seriously :)

FREESTYLE OR HIPHOP!

(Anyway, the blog song is the opening song.)

This year is ending soon, and there are many things that I want to say. This year seemed to be a bad year for me, but yet again when I think of other things, it just seems like a good thing all together after all. 2006 is the year I got hurt the most, I cried the most, and everything just seemed bad. But ironically there are also happy times that I will really treasure deep in my heart, although some happy moments are better left to be forgotten. Very ironic indeed.

After STEP UP, others headed home while partner and I went walking about. We ended up chatting and to be honest partner, I was on the verge of crying several times when I was telling you everything. You know, sometimes I just want to rant all my unhappiness out. But I know I can't, because if I do so, I'll be hurting others and pushing the blame on others. I guess for all that happened, I can't blame anyone.

I'm walking out. I'm reaching for the door.

9:26 PM



[13 November 2006]
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOM! :)

Went to the library again. Photocopied notes again and borrowed some books. Here are the result of today's library trip. Well, not exactly.


I think I'm a total Japanese freak. Never mind. At least this is a small step to me mastering Japanese. All these while I don't really go to the library that often so I couldn't borrow that much. Haha. This is really the extreme. Or maybe not.

Anyway seems like people are already beginning to study and do homework! Oh my god. I better start preparing super glue and stick my butt to the chair. This week will have the extra lectures going on! And I havent even planned out my study timetable. GREAT.


9:58 PM



[12 November 2006]
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Bibi didn't come today. Another instructor came. She's like so hiphop and so YOU LI. She dances well, but I guess my standard is like a few miles behind hers. Definitely. Oh well. I guess I have to work on my dancing.

Anyway I was full of anticipation and excitement when I know Channel U's broadcasting the Global Chinese Music Awards. But it just totally sucks. I think the guys who edited the programme thought we're blind. Its so badly edited, and scenes just skipped here and there. I have to admit, this year's award ceremony was really quite a failure. So-not-high performances at the start and throughout the whole show, emcees getting high themselves and totally disorganised on the part of giving out awards. BOO. Negative 5 out of 5 stars for this. I was practically switching between channels.

That's all, I guess. Mom's birthday and library tomorrow!

10:53 PM



[11 November 2006]
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Its a lifeless day today. Haha. I woke up at 1pm in the afternoon. Call me a master sleeper :)

Watched "Ai Sha 17" this afternoon. Its a really great twisting storyline. You'll be wondering who's that mastermind behind the whole thing and go gasping in shock when you find out more things regarding the dead twin.

Its dance tomorrow again. Oh yeah and I guess I have to really start planning out my study timetable soon. Or else I'll be dead next year. With dance practices coming up I'll be even more dead. Oh well. Lets see when the time comes.

11:17 PM



[10 November 2006]
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In the end, I didn't go to the library. I woke up too late.

The new branch at AMK was dead cool. They have two flat-screen televisions and now has a air-conditioner remote control in the room. We wont be shivering in the rooms anymore! Cool, huh? And the service there was much better than the rest. You know, usually they just come in with the big jar of drink and walk off? This time, they actually poured the drink for us! Other branches should learn that too. Hints.

Anyway, we were getting so high at the end. Haha. I think my sore throat hurts abit now. OH NOO. And I did a stupid thing today. I will not elaborate but heck, although its stupid I would rather do that. Great day today :)

Just always remember this: I don't like being put up with people I don't like. Don't force me.

11:44 PM



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I am not a playtime or entertainment tool for you guys. I'm not someone that you guys can crack jokes on. Yes, I don't mind harmless teasing. But when things go too far, I just can't take it. I tried to bear with it, I tried to sound as normal as I can. How much I wanted to hang up the phone just like that, leaving you guys in total shock. Once again, thanks for hurting me like that.

Looking at my past, I realised some things. I am not someone who you guys can treat me good or bad as and when you like it. Suddenly, I totally loathe this.

I cried myself to sleep last night.

BAH! On a lighter note,

PW'S OVER!!!
Yesh. No more drafts, no more final submissions and no more oral presentation! But I screwed up my QNA abit though. Oh well. It's over! A group of us went to Joan's house to play mahjong! Fun. Haha. With Ann Nee, Li Sin and Joan, I think I can really laugh till my stomach ache several times. Met son too. Right timing ehh? Haha.

LIBRARY AND PERHAPS KBOX TOMORROW! :)

suddenly i'm starting to love going to the library. It feels rather peaceful to be able to make time for myself and go to the quiet library.

1:47 AM



[08 November 2006]
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OP tomorrow.

I'm abit scared for the Q&A though. Prays.

Today our group chiong-ed all the way! We rehearsed a total of three times. It was pretty draining but I think we improved :)

Well congrats to those who had their OP today because its finally over! Good luck to myself, my group, my class and everyone having OP tomorrow! :)

9:19 PM



[05 November 2006]
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Alright, I had enough.

JUST SHEESH.

i'm not happy about this blog war. Whatever it is, everyone, just stop. Stop blogging anything concerning the class. This is really the last straw.
Please stop pushing the blame on others, because everyone plays a part. Look down on others? Just SHEESH about it and don't blog openly. Yes, you guys could say its your own choice and freedom to blog whatever you want. But have you guys thought of the consequences? Its really hurting to see this situation. Honestly, I think its even worse than backstabbing. So just stop for everyone's sake. THANK YOU.


Dance today. She actually joined 3 sets together this time! I went speechless when she asked me what she taught last week. I guessed everyone was really exhausted when the class finished. Oh and before I forget, best of luck for all those mugging their heads bodies whatever off for the big exam! AZA AZA FIGHTING!

Maybe I shouldn't add salt and vinegar into this. But I just thought that someone has to come in and stop all these. I'm so sorry, 0619.

3:14 PM



[04 November 2006]
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thanks everyone.

you know what? surprisingly i'm getting better faster than i thought. I'm surprised at this myself. One close friend told me that at least I know everything now. That's true. Hey Raine, maybe I'm going to win this contest. (I'm just joking. Cheer up too, girl.)

I'm expecting the worst for Chinese. I just think here and there and I really don't think I'll get an A this time. My illusions (or rather, nightmares) show that I'll be getting a C. Scary! NOO!

I've a new phone! So friends, please be informed that I've changed my number!

I found another "Learn Japanese" book at the library! Woohoo. This time, the book talks about the basic vocabulary and grammer of Japanese. One tiny step to mastering Japanese.

Suddenly, I have nothing else to tag about. Haha. Anyway, once again, thanks to all my friends who tried to cheer me up! :)

There's no need to say sorry.

7:26 PM



[02 November 2006]
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i feel like saying sorry to you. i don't know why.

i feel like saying sorry to you because i thought too much.
i feel like saying sorry to you because i got the wrong impression.
i feel like saying sorry to you because..
i just..

feel like saying sorry.

10:24 PM



[01 November 2006]
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Sentosa was so much fun. I love it. Let's go again.

...

But right now, I'm so sorry guys. I'm just not in the mood to talk more about the sentosa outing. No..it has nothing to do with the outing. I don't want to say something that really makes me happy when I'm actually feeling bad. That is so contradicting.

...

I guessed I have my hopes for you a little too high.
I guessed I still want to try to believe in you.
I guessed I will never be what you want.

I was confused, because you seemed confused. Now everything's clear, and I can't really say I regretted it. It feels better to know, but yet it doesn't seem so. At that moment, I really don't feel like talking to you. But I couldn't. I read too much into what you've said. I thought too much. I kept telling myself not to, but I still did. Just when I was going to be alright, I went back to square one again. I guess I'll always be stuck here. I once read about something on the Internet. Is this my retribution? I guess for the next Sentosa outing, I will and want to be alone this time.


Crying has become my habit (at least, not daily).

two depressed girls together. GIRL POWER.

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