There had been...

tears of exhaustion,
tears of frustration,
tears of sweat,
tears of blood and injuries,
tears of joy,
tears of fulfilment,
tears FROM DANSEZ-LE.

Thanks Michelle, for reminding me of what I've said. I guess it was more of the reason that there were so many people behind us and their intense faith in us really made me feel bad. I didn't know how to face everyone, I've never cried this bad before.

"No matter what, our efforts are commendable. We have improved so much, and no one other than us knows our experience. And we fought on till the very end. We shall bring on this spirit on 19May, our graduation night."

Thanks everyone for their concern, and I'm really sorry but I really don't have the mood to answer everyone. Its tough saying the word out. I still can't say "CELEBRATE" from the bottom of my heart, that is why I'm not saying so. I don't want to fake it out. I want to clear my mind and make sure i am really happy to say that. Sorry, everyone.

10:49 PM

I SURVIVED.

complex numbers test
2.4km run
GP comprehension assignment
tiles
dance

I survived. I'm pretty shocked at myself too. I thought I would never be able to survive.

Something is seriously going on here. Its weird.

when... when... WHEN.
I guess I should really put all these to an end. Stop thinking about it.

11:37 PM

I'm officially sick. I lost my voice for a few moments today. I hate losing my voice!

And I sucked at today's practice. What's wrong with me?! I made so many mistakes.. and I think he was commenting on me. Sighs. Well it was obvious he commented on me and I know its something bad BUT I don't know what. I'm stressed up. Dance, Tiles, Studies. I'm on the verge of dying. Plus I'm sick. Ugh. Suddenly my confidence level went down.

I really want to just lay on my bed whenever I reach home..

11:16 PM

GP tuition is so fun. With such a interesting teacher who just gives you many amazing facts of the world, and interesting classmates! (:

I'm sick. Bwa. I hate this kind of cough! Sometimes it just makes me feel like puking. And SYF's coming, really soon. It was until tyson reminded me its just 8 days away that I realised "Whoa." Tomorrow will mark the day when we start working hard for the last lap, Dansez-Le! (: We can do it! JIAYOU!

9:53 PM

I'm getting more and more exhausted. Everytime I go home I don't feel like doing anything. And I practically did nothing yesterday, and today. I just want to get onto my bed and SLEEP. Bwa. But I can't slack anymore! Tests are coming up, and Dance SYF is approaching!

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS.

DANSEZ-LE, we have gone through so much that no one else can understand or experience them. We worked very hard, and no matter what others say, we ourselves know how much effort we've put in. There is one thing I know for sure; I LOVE YOU GUYS! (:

NO. Stop thinking about it. Don't even think about it. Ugh.

11:31 PM

Kind of slacked this weekend again. No studying, but yes, there were tutorials done. But tutorials like Math and Physics! I have totally no idea to do some of the questions. Oh no.

And I feel mentally drained out too. Like suddenly there's so much stuff to do.

Someone has to take the initiative, or else nothing will be done.

9:19 PM

FABULOUS. I just love this movie.

Dance wasn't really good today. I was feeling really giddy during the last run. Didn't even have the strength to do the last part. Totally went wobbly. Anyway, take care everyone! Its only 2 weeks left! Whoa. That's really fast.

And I can't do the math tutorial. Ugh.

I'm addicted to the songs of A Walk To Remember again.

10:39 PM

Its a holiday tomorrow! (:

Got back all my block test results. I passed everything, so I'm rather happy for myself. However, I know I have not given my best and I still have a long way to go. GAMBATTE! (: My wound got infected by the way, and there is like pus oozing out lah. Disgusting. Bwa.

Did I mention?! BTYCO attained a SILVER for SYF 2007! Super duper happy for them! (: Proud of you guys! Excellent job!

I have to be on track again.

10:22 PM

BANG.

I just got hit by two deaths. One of my close friend's, one of my senior's. Everything actually really caused an impact on me when I saw the blog. It seemed really scary. And once again, it dawned on me that life can be so vulnerable, and full of surprises (bad or good). Its already frightening seeing this happening to my friends. How much more will it get?

11:24 PM

Went to the temple to pray today, and I didn't know today was Qin Ming. Bwa. Anyway there was a crowd there, and everything there changed so much. I guessed I haven't been there for sometime.

BTYCO! JIAYOU! SYF's on Tuesday and sad to say, I can't go down to SCH to support you guys! But no worries, I believe you guys have worked hard! So just give your best shot! (:
(And I got the score for "Liang Feng". Haha. But i want "Jiu Ge" too!)

Ugh. I still can't find the song! Irritating.

7:07 PM