YES! I hit the big 2! Sounds just like the big O (O levels). Okay, never mind. Anyway, I think you'll feel very blessed on your birthday, or when your birthday is near. Every small little thing would make one very happy. Well, at least to me it is! I would really want to thank those who celebrated for me whether is it face-to-face or through CMC. Hahaha!

Oh my god. I think most of you dont know what is CMC. I'm using what i learnt in my new media elective! CMC means Computer-mediated Communications (:

Okay enough of the crap. All in all, just want to say a very BIG THANK YOU to those who wished me and celebrated with me! (: Your presence or message was important to me!

So here comes the longest post of the year I guess. Let me try to make it a long post. HAHA.

21st March 2009:



Met up with dear after dance! He was so funny. I saw him reaching my house downstairs and I wanted to go down when he told me not to. He gave me my present and I really like it alot! (: (: I didnt know he got such a good taste in bags. Hahaha. Oops.

Then we went off to AMK HUB! Was actually considering town but it was raining so we went AMK instead. "Got shelter" hahaha. Then we wanted to watch Street Fighter but the time slot was really late so we watched Mall Cop! It was really funny and cute!

It was already 7pm when the movie ended! Met ngai ming and george at bishan and we went to NTUC to buy charcoal! Yay, ngai ming and george came! Haha. After much persuasion. Ahem. Just joking! Haha.









Had a really nice pre-birthday celebration with them! I'm like the 2nd oldest among them! :(
They played some games as well - I'm really wondering why only my birthday they played such games! Yulin had to kiss me, we have to eat a hotdog together and then I have to be blindfolded to be able to guess whose hand is Yulin's! Bwa. Haha. But it was really fun! I think the guys feel very molested when I touched their hands hahah!





We kept moving our picnic mat because the sun kept shining on us! Haha. But in the end... we still got tanned! Look at the photos at facebook and you will see! I got tanned as well! At my right shoulder, and its really painful. Bwa. Haha. And I was trying to tan my other shoulder after we found out we got tanned!

It was really peaceful at the roof! I dont know why but our side was really ulu. Haha. Hardly any people there. Maybe there are more people at the other side because of the scenery (You can see the Singapore Flyer and buildings!). But we have fun talking, and taking candid photos! Sighs, who came up with this idea! Hahah. I only posted one candid of each of us! Actually there is more! MUCH MORE!









So, at night it was dinner with my family! My sister was really nice to go to Fortunate Restaurant at Toa Payoh because she knows I have been craving for Peking Duck since I don't know when. Haha! So we were walking up the staircase to the restaurant, and I was taking this photo (My nephew can't wait to go in).

Then I was wondering why my sister was like walking so slowly, when I looked down and I saw someone so familiar. I was really stunned for a moment there, because judging from the back view, it really looks like Yulin! I was thinking "huh, I thought he went back home after bball to bathe and Junwei is at his house?" But when he turned around, it was really him!

Really really shocked, but really really happy. Even though throughout the dinner he felt quite paiseh, but I was very happy that he was there with me :) All thanks to my sister again for all these "surprises". Haha. Wanted to take a family photo! But my daddy walked off just like that haha. So never mind. There'll be a next time! (:

Feel rather bad because I caused him to not have enough time to study.. so I can only thank him for spending time with me during last weekend. THANK YOU and Love you! (:





Thanks to everyone who wished me or gave me presents like Law, Yeeshih, Huizi and the rest too! Basically, you guys know who you are! (: Thank you for making my 20th birthday a memorable one! (:

I love my family, Yulin and friends! (: THANK YOU!

11:28 PM

learning to adapt, learning to think for the future.

Hello! Sorry for the lack of updates! Been really lazy to blog, and no topics to find too! It's really hard to keep updating the blog. Plus the fact that the Internet is seen by all, some things just cannot be said here!

Well Im feeling much better! Adjusting and all. Its all about learning and being strong!

These few days will be so busy! Tomorrow after dance I'll be meeting yulin and then at night it'll be bbq together with hsun hao they all! (: Looking forward to it! And then I'm having picnic with yimin, chels and cheryl on sunday afternoon! Marina Barrage! Never gone there before.. It looks really nice! Photo-taking time!!! Haha. Sunday night will be a simple dinner with my family to celebrate my birthday (:

Then the actual day itself will be spent with mummy and sister..and maybe a while with yulin (:

On top of that, I have an essay to complete! I'm trying very very hard to complete it.. but this time the essay is really hard to write. The fear of writing out of point. BWA!

JIAYOU!

9:34 PM

I've never thought about this before.. but it seems that I just realised that..

I'm not strong at all.

Why do I let my emotions control me nowadays? Sighs. Not good for me, not good for the body and not good for anyone else. But why do I still let it happen? I thought I'll be strong enough to pull through everything in life, but know what? ACTUALLY I CAN'T.

Dumb. Stupid. Stupid. Dumb.

I think if I continue to be like this, everyone will start hating me and run away from me. HAHA. Especially the one person. I really dont want to see that happening... Why am I so easily affected recently? CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHY!!!

Sighs... I really dont know...

11:06 PM

Tiring! Dance rehearsal ended at 9pm! Felt so bad making chelsea wait! :(

Well it was fun dancing again! And I think we three are very lucky that we are able to perform only after 2 weeks together with the school! Tomorrow have to reach at 10am! Its like such an official thing - I have no time to do my own stuff! Lab reports, Essay 2 and English! Sighs.

Hang in there.

Keep telling myself this. Kept telling myself this. No matter what, no matter what happens, no matter how tired I am, no matter what I feel sad/happy/disappointed/etc etc about, HANG IN THERE.

It was nice meeting up with chelsea! Having dinner and chatting! We should have like a gathering at least every month ok! (:

Ohya! I almost lost my wallet this week! As always, I always almost lost my wallet the same way. I will forget to keep my wallet in my bag after boarding the bus. Then when I get up, the wallet will drop and I wont realise it. Luckily the bus uncles at Clementi bus interchange were very nice! (: Thanks to them I got back my wallet! Or else, my ez-link, IC, atm cards all gone! IC is so important!

Going off to sleep soon. Its late and i need to wake up early tomorrow!

Since its korean hiphop Im dancing now, AZA AZA FIGHTING! (:

And dear, no matter what, i'll be there for you.

Have a happy weekend people!

12:24 AM

feeling much better. its all in the mind! I should and will believe that in a relationship, its all about give and take!

thanks wanwan! You made me see the big picture! (:

10:27 PM

Feeling much better after dancing and taking a very short nap just now.. I actually thought i might just break down completely when I'm bathing. That's good huh, you break down when you're bathing, then you no need tissue anymore!!!
I'm sad because Im disappointed, that since you know you'll be busy once your attachment starts, you never thought of spending time alone with me.. I guess it's all about choice. And you've made your choice.
I hate being dependent.... Why am I so dependent? The feeling just sucks. I dont know if such a feeling is right or wrong, but I guess I'm wrong. As always. I think too much, I worry too much, call me "TOO MUCH GIRL!" yay.

Pressure pressure pressure. I'm giving people pressure. Wahahaha.

I think I'm turning crazy.

3:46 PM