This week was unexpectedly busy.

First, the good news. I managed to find some students for math tuition! I thought taking 2 or 3 students was okay, but it really isn't! Quite looking forward to tutoring - it will be a whole new experience for me and hopefully I'll be able to teach and make them understand! Have to like really revise and prepare before meeting them!

Went swimming last night at the roof of the Central @ Clarke Quay. Yup there is a swimming pool, jacuzzis and a gym there! But its only accessible by the office people and residents there. My sister and I went to accompany my mother (she was having gym). Well, I havent been swimming since don't know when! Not enough stamina, and bad skills. I kept sinking down when swimming. Bwa. But the jacuzzis were nice - theres cold and warm ones! :) And watching mummy do workout for the 1st time was really funny! hahaha.

Went City Plaza today with my sister - she wanted to take stocks for her online shop. Tiring, but we saw some nice clothes. I bought a simple tube dress for $10 and she bought a pair of sunglasses cause hers was broken haha.

I gotten my PDL on wednesday, and my daddy is going to teach me this sunday evening when he comes back from bangkok! Oh my god. Scary... And I'm proud to say Yulin passed his final theory! Haha. He almost scared me when he came out with an..expressionless look.

Everything seems to turn out well in the end.

7:54 PM

Well, it was our very first time having a photoshoot for our online shop! Haha. Well its not my first but its still nervous! But everything was very quick, and it was really up to us to do all the poses while the photographer just helped us take the photos. The quality of the photos was really better! Hope everyone like the new look, though!

Advertisement for my shop meanwhile, haha!

Yup, we're up with a new collection - SWEET 16! :) Do check them out alright! And just feel free to email my shop at balladbox@gmail.com or just sms/msn me!

I'm meeting him tomorrow! Finally! After more than a week! I really miss him badly!!!

& I'm still looking for a jobbbbbbbbbbbbb.

10:55 PM

Memories are flowing back. University is really different from jc or secondary school. As in, the lifestyles. Like what I told yimin, it's like really hard to find a clique you can communicate with in university. At least, it is for me. To me, for now, I still think secondary and junior college are the best :)

Met up with dear 06nineteen this afternoon! It was fun - I mean it feels good to meet them every now and then. But I hope we can meet more often. At one moment it was more of catching up with them really rather than just playing games instead. It felt good. I hope there will be more :)

TWENTY. Yeah, I've reached the age of twenty. That's really fast. As we grow up, we think more differently and things become different too. More things to ponder about etc etc. It's not easy, but we'll survive it.

Dont know why but lazy to put up any photos. I'm in love with wordy entry posts I guess?
Anyway tomorrow Balladbox'll be going for studio photoshoot! Means we are going to show our faces!! AH!!

11:26 PM

thanks to the tags from nana and sookhan :)

I'm better now. Much better. My emotional state is very unstable, which is not good but I hope people will understand and I will also try my best to adjust myself! I mean things must work in both ways right? One-way road is not good.

Finding other ways to distract myself and also not make him tired :) He's tired enough. Still looking hard for jobs, and I just created a "Do you know me well?" Facebook quiz! Haha. I think its so fun, seeing people's answers and what they think! Going out with yimin later! :)

Oh yes and nana I love you too :) Miss you, please faster come back and talk non-stop haha. Erm, maybe keep that at a minimal level after awhile. Haha.

He has been rushing work this week, hope he gets enough rest! Love you.

I like my new blog's music player! Recently I have been listening to Daughtry and Nickelback! Meaningful and nice songs. Just shuffle around the iTouch to listen to more beautiful songs! :)

11:15 AM

and so its the start of the holidays! I need to find a job! I think I can finally feel the impact of the recession on myself now - it's so hard to find a temp job now! Compared to last time, there are much more posts looking for temporary staff. Oh well.

Went to yimin's house today with sihui and madeline! Thanks yimin for asking - I guess it'll be better than staying at home the whole time. Played erhu abit, I'm really rusty! And yimin taught me abit of "Merry Christmas Mr.Lawrence" on the piano! Sihui helped me with "Yong Qi" haha. All three of them know how to play piano except me! Mad was really li hai! Haha.

And so, at the end of the day, I had fun although I can't help but feel a tinge of loneliness. It had been so long.. I already forgotten how long things have been this way. YES, bear with it bear with it. But I remembered reading someone's blog recently - "Every rejection seems like a stab into my heart". It's so true, and I dont want to deny it. It's been so long, that I dont know if things are improving but I hope and believe things are at least improving. I'm really trying my best..

Didnt want to blog all these, but nana was saying she loved to blog cause it lets your inner thoughts run..which i think its quite true. But of course, blogging all these will certainly prompt certain people to ask...

SIGHS even though I have been given advice, I still can't help it but feel this way. I understand and know that its not about who's right or wrong, and I should try to understand. But its getting so hard for me sometimes I just think, "then who will understand me?"

Okay, enough of all these. I think I shall just forget it and i'll be fine by myself. I will always be fine by myself, isn't it? Its all in the mind. I shall not be a burden to anyone or bother anyone.

8:13 PM

Yup finally tonight marks my first night of freedom! Well the feeling is not really strange to me actually it felt normal. Too many exam periods i have gone through, i guess.

Sleepover at Chels' tomorrow! And skyping with nana!

Next up, I will have to think of how to fully utilize my 3 months' holiday! Find a job, get Balladbox to another level and enjoy myself! :) learn new things too perhaps!

10:07 PM